Have you ever thought being “faithful” looks like putting your feelings aside and proclaiming only the goodness of God? I’m pretty sure that way of living is promoted as holy in many Christian circles. I thought like that too, until I had a very real, personal encounter with the Lord. During an all-church fast, I believe God put it on my heart to bring everything to Him, even the stuff I thought of as unholy. “Just come,” He said. Since then, I have seen a huge increase of intimacy and loving trust as I bring everything to the Lord: my praise, my junk, my doubt, my delight, all of it.
For this season of Lent, my prayer for Redemption Church is that every person who desires deeper intimacy will respond to God’s open invitation to come. At the beginning of this process, I experienced a lot of fear about how imperfect my expressions of love were compared to the spotless, righteous love of God. In response to that fear, I felt like the Lord put the following poem in my heart.
Title: Keep Coming
Keep coming, love
Even when self-hatred pulls you back
Even when there’s snot mixed with your tears
And your hair might leave dirt smudges
On my feet
My feet don’t mind
So, keep coming, love
Even when condemnation weighs you down
Even when your “old ways” take over
And you think I’m like an ordinary man
I’ll turn your grime to gold
And your shame to praise
Just keep coming, love
I know you’re bruised
But I won’t break you
But I won’t quench you
I’m not afraid of your pain
Your urges, your doubts, your rage
My love, just keep coming.
Blessings on your Lenten reflections. And may you know the joy of deep intimacy with our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Naomi Wong is a writer whose permanent residence is in California. She spends her days writing novels and poetry and loves prayer ministry, too. She has attended Redemption Church since January 2019.